*Sigh*

It's been a long, trying week.

I'm feeling a little bit better about Poochie, and I thank you guys for the kind words.

As for everything else, I'm not too sure how I feel. It's been two months since Tim and I split, yet I can't get him off of my mind. Even though he's not here, I see him everywhere.

I see him every time I look at the gazebo in my front yard, where he and my dad trimmed the bushes to prepare for my sister's birthday party.

I see him, whenever I walk into the kitchen, leaning over the stove preparing some off-the-wall dish from his mind.

I feel him every time  listen to a song by Billie Holiday or Lois Armstrong.

I think of him every time I visit the bonfire area of our yard, where we had our first kiss.

And my heart aches the most for him when I sit in the Ivy Patch, the place where I first felt love. I've taken to visiting that area quite often. Maybe it's self-torture, but the part of me that still clings to his memory can't let go of that milestone.

This has become the theme song for the Ivy patch, as the Hollow Tree is a direct link to my memories.



 I wish I knew how to make everything right.

:(

Well you guys, today is a sad day. I found Poochie in the back yard, dead. We gave him a proper burial.

I don't mean to be dramatic, but it really seems that whenever I develop love for someone, (and yes Poochie is counted as a someone), I end up losing them. I'm cursed.

New channel

soooo.... I've started a new youtube channel, and I'm thinking about incorporating it into the blog... wadya think?

:/

this pretty much sums up how I feel currently:

Warning: Gushiness Ahead

Okay, okay. You can unfold those arms of yours and stop tapping your foot now. Jeeze, you people are so impatient!

Haha, just kidding you guys. I know it's been a while since I've blogged but recently I've stumbled upon something. I wanted to blog about it, but I wasn't sure if I should for a long while. What is it, you may ask. Well, it's a boy!

Hey, hey! I saw you roll your eyes!

This guy is actually VERY good company to me, I'll have you know. He's wonderfully charming, smart, and absolutely smoldering to the eyes. He's a Leo, and that's what his alias is right now.... at least until I'm sure that his privacy isn't at stake.

So, Leo and I have been talking for quite some time now, and I must admit that I'm drawn more and more to him every time we speak. Honestly, I have more in common with him than anyone I've ever met. Sometimes it gives me chills, even.

So that, along with work and school, is the reason I've neglected you my dear friends. I'm very sorry. But we're still friends right?

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AWWWW! I love you guys! I knew you'd never leave me!